Artists Make Art: Personal Stories - April 2016

©2016 Trudy | Drift Sojourn

©2016 Trudy | Drift Sojourn

Once a month I discuss what art I created during the previous month in my Artists Make Art series. I shared such a post for January, February and March; this post is for April. I wrote the original essay for the series in December when I launched this new space to bring my personal, professional, and creative thoughts, ideas and work together; Gradient Lair (Black women and art, media, social media, sociopolitics and culture; womanism), Drift Sojourn (food, travel, lifestyle and macro photography) and Cinemacked (entertainment, aesthetics and sociopolitics of good film and television). 

In April I created: 

  • Revisions for my subject-specific digital anthologies of Gradient Lair; each will focus on a particular topic that I wrote about while the space was active in 2012-2015. I want the anthologies to eventually be available in Publications here, and on an anthology link on Gradient Lair itself. Admittedly, this particular project is very difficult, emotionally. I am still dealing with consistent plagiarism on old content, some of the content is difficult to revisit, and I do not know if I have the financial resources to make this happen. I got rejected for a grant to help this and the abuse I would face creating a fundraiser is too much. I am wondering if I will proceed with this at all or try to go in a new direction and leave all this particular work behind. Unsure for now. If I do proceed, I would publish 2-3 of them to start and then 1 every 1-2 months, most likely. I have about 20 subjects on my mind, and I wrote about a lot more than that on Gradient Lair anyway.
  • New photographs that I shared on my Instagram profile. I also made a couple of photographs inspired by Beyoncé's Lemonade visual album. I did not share any new posts on Drift Sojourn blog, but I am working on some other things within my photography that  I will share later in the year. (I do have a rather long essay on my mind, but it is kinda far down on my "to create" list.)

April had so many emotional highs and lows for me. Again, I confronted the thoughts that I alluded to in Social Media: "Fans," Supporters, Hypervisibility and Survival. I am not sure how to continue using social media for my work when I have to deal with hourly abuse and weekly to even daily plagiarism/exploitation. People harm me because I creating anything at all. People refuse to value (or at least leave me alone regarding) what I create as well. It is not just bigotry directed to me as an individual with my particular identity. It is exploitation; demands for free labor; sabotage. It is social and economic violence. It is targeted. I always talk about how art saves me. It does. I just wonder what will happen when it no longer can. Because I think that day is closer than I want to admit to. I am not sure that I can "create" my way out of the inevitable. I know that for now, I at least still try.

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